2nd Place, Youth Poetry

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Prompt words - 

Shatter Ember Whisper Crimson Unravel Reckon 

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Actor, by Koda Nelson

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I'm doing better why? 

I'm just in a better place then When my last love decided he Wanted it to end At least that's what they think 

At least that's what i say 

But I'm lost and afraid 

I love him 

An amber that was forgotten 

An amber that could be a flame

I've grown as an actor 

I can eat when im ordered 

But that doesn't mean i don't mourn 

Mourn my friendship 

Morn being loved 

I sit there wishing i could die a martyr 

To finally do something kind 

A few years older or maybe only one 

But the story might be the same 

I didn't see it before 

A sequel 

I haven't ever won 

I'm a liar 

I lie when i don't say i love you 

That's the trustist thing i have ever said 

I love you I whisper 

If whisper i can still hide behind lies 

I thought it was as a friend 

With that i had lied to myself 

People don't like someone who talks to much 

no one likes someone who talks to little 

there's nothing wrong with talking they say 

But everyone lies 

I'm in a better place 

But that doesn't mean i can trust 

That doesn't mean a kind face doesn't strike me as a lie Cause you both lied 

I tend to reckon my own thoughts might be a lie 

Crimson is a color hard to clean 

You might only see it when you unravel an otherwise clean sheet I'm in a better place 

Cause i'm a few years older and a better actor 

But i'm still acting 

Knowing 

A broken mask can always shatter